Hello there,

I can't believe it's been almost a whole year since I've let the internet world in on my life.  This will be long, but worth it.  If you read it all then I'll give you some kudos.

Life

Well my 19 year old sister, Amber, just had her baby about an hour ago.  His name is Jaden and he weighed 7 pounds 4 ounces.  She's doing fine.  She had to have him by C section which sucks for her because she'll have a longer recovery time.  I won't be able to go see her for a while though (see "Work" section below.)  My family came to Tulsa in May and stayed for 5 days.  They kinda hinted that they wanted me to move back home, to which I pretty much replied a big HELL NO!  But after looking at my life here in Tulsa, that's not really looking like a bad idea.

Work

I worked at Sonic on 81^st and Lewis for a year.  I think I only enjoyed my 1^st and last month there.  Yea I pretty much hated it the rest of the time.  Then I went to Jenks Sonic and my big outspoken mouth got my fired from there.  But then as my luck would have it, the owner and women who fired me, called me and recommended me to another store.  So now I am at 59^th and Lewis Sonic.  I love the owner there and the whole environment is just very laid back.  But since I just got this job, there is no way I can go home anytime soon.  I am also the nanny to a child that I really love.  I also clean the mother's house which I really hate.  So I work like 70 hours a week and its really killing me.  Therefore I am trying to find a "real" job, but that's really hard bc I really have no idea what I want and are qualified to do. 

Love

Right now I am currently single and for the most part loving it.  I've been in a couple of relationships over the past 18 months and now I'm just trying to love the single life.  I met an amazing guy on Match.com.  The site promises that if you don't find someone in 6 months you get your money back.  Well it only took my 2 months to find Billy Joe.  Our relationship moved very quickly and we were married in Vegas a month later.  Well that was a month ago and I just signed the divorce papers this morning.  "It's better to have loved and lost, than to not have loved at all."  Sometimes I miss having "someone there."  That statement kind of makes me sound co-dependent which is so not true, but I guess I really do miss friends.  Going from living on a floor with 25 other girls that would do anything for you, to living in the ghetto where people would do anything to steal something from you, is a huge change.

Other

I am working myself to death and I hate it.  I wish that I could just win the lottery, except that would be hard because I don't play the lottery.  Maybe I'll start.  I miss my friends.  I've secluded myself for the past year and lost touch with the people I care about.  It's my own fault.  I've made new friends and for the most part I like them, but sometimes friends are just another chore in my life.  The people I work with at this new Sonic are like one big family, but not really the type of people I think I'll be chilling with anytime soon.  If you live in Tulsa and need a roommate or know of anyone who does, then give me a holla cuz I gotsa get the heck of my current housing bc it sucks being awaken by gun shots on more than one occasion.

P.S. I am kidding about the match.com thing.  If you know me at all, you would know that I am a kidder.  I just thought my love life was so boring that I had to make up a little story for ya'll.

Best of times=the beach.

I spent two amazing days on the beach.  I pretty much decided that I really wanna live near a beach when I grow up.  First I went to surf side at night with Kristen and Tara.  Did I mention I hate bathing suits?  Well lucky for us that wasn't a problem... hahahaha.   Check that off my things to do before I die list!  You figure it out.  I also had fun when I went home.  I took my little brother and my friend's son skating Saturday.  The owner thought I was TJ's mom so I got in free and TJ called me mom the whole time. I thought it was funny. It was crazy to bring my friend's sin bc his mom and dad met at the skating rink and now they are married and have him.  I used to skate at that very rink with his parents.  It made me feel real old. And TJ calling me mom didn't help. Anyway Saturday night my sister told all her friends that she had to stay home and spent time with me before I went to El Salvodor.  So that was cool bc we really aren't super close, but we spent lots of quality time together this trip.  Church was great.  I told lots of pl about El Salvador and they were so excited for me. I know this is the right thing for me.

Worst of times=the hospital

Pretty much Thursday was one of the top 5 worst days in my life.  Friday I had the tests done and they put me to sleep. I was pretty scared about getting put to sleep for what they called "outpatient surgery."  Anyway it is over and they removed some polyps. They are sending one off the make sure it ain't cancerous.  The worst part was that the night before I had to drink two bottles of this nasty crap that was intended to clean out my system.  Well all I got to say about that is that you can't pay me enough to clean out my system ever again.  I'm pretty sure that was worse than any flu or anything else I ever had to go through.  God I am so glad I don't ever have to worry about having a kid because that is the only thing I can think of that would be worse than what I experienced.

In other news

I've realized how much I've grown to love Tulsa. I even miss the Christian Rock station.  I missed it almost as much as I miss my boyfriend and I do miss my boyfriend A LOT!  Also I have worked at Sonic for two days.  They have me making drinks, which doesn't sound hard, but let me tell you!  Every frickin' order comes with a drink and I make it.  All day I can never move from that frickin station.  Well I have to go through the bad before I get to what I really want to do and that is carhop then manage then own a store then become a millionaire.  Just kidding. I really have no idea what I am gonna do after El Salvador.  And I miss my boyfriend more than I ever thought was possible.  OK I am gonna shut up now.